Do you remember being able to pop out to the store and just BUY a gift? Or maybe even just give an Amazon gift certificate (gasp of horror)?
I don't.
It's time for holiday knitting. Actually, depending on the number of giftees / the complexity & size of the knitter's ambitions, it's been time for holiday knitting for months. Holiday knitting, if you start early enough, can actually be quite joyous. there is great pleasure in knitting for someone else. Knowing you are putting such love and thought and skill into their gift (etc., etc., other knitters have said this much more eloquently than I).
I blew it. I'm already tired of my holiday knitting and I am wracked with guilt. I decided I finally was going to knit the
Great American Aran Afghan for my mother. She turned 75 this year and I only knit her a scarf version of the
Morning Glory stole for her birthday. It felt inadequate.
I knew the afghan was going to be a lengthy project so I started in early August and was quite dedicated for quite a while. I actually got 12 out of the 20 squares done (sounds pretty good but don't forget all that blocking / seaming / border).
Then I decided I was so far along I could take a "break" for the month of October and knit a couple of things for other people & for myself. Now it's November & I'm finding myself bargaining with my inner knitter: "Just let me work on this for ONE more night and then I'll start another square...just one more sock...I just want to finish that sweater because it's getting cold...and I actually want that scarf to be done...I NEED it...I'm not just selfishly knitting for knitting's sake."
For F*&k's sake. When you are guilt-ridden beginning in August about doing any knitting but holiday knitting, you have a serious problem. Damn afghan. I wore my chevron scarf the other day and she admired that greatly. Turns out she wants a chevron scarf. Hmmm. Maybe the afghan can wait until mother's day.
Other notes from the holiday knitting: brother wanted knee length kilt hose. Brother is getting a steam scarf (
Ravelry link) which is almost done. Friend had a scarf knitted (and FINISHED) b/c she was having surgery. Friend is now well on her way to recovery & will get the scarf for Xmas b/c I am lame & never got to the post office. Aunt didn't make any requests but was wearing a really awful crocheted shawl to something last year. Aunt is getting
Ella, which I made a few years ago and never wore (I even feel guilty about THAT but I assuage my guilt w/ the fact that Aunt got a handknit sweater 3 Xmas' ago). Friend was going to get Bicycle Helmet Ear Warmers from magknits(?) but I asked & it turns out he will never wear them so they can be safely taken out of the Ravelry queue.
Through all of this - keep in mind that some of my psychosis may be congenital. I come from a family with a long tradition of handmade gifts. I happen to know what my mother is making me for Xmas & it is freakin' gorgeous.
We'll see how far I get on the afghan. I'll restart this weekend. There may be some last-minute chevron scarf knitting in December. I already have the yarn. Just in case.